Hello alllll~ it has been....well it's been a minute...I wanted to come on here and just lay my cards out. I recently found out my husnand has been cheating on me while deployed, now you may be sitting here reading that and going "but Brianna, you're on Pornhub, surely you jest" the thing of it is....I have been forgiving this man for his constant failures to communicate to me when he needs that..."secondary validation" so to speak...he has been actively cheating on me since before I even started doing Pornhub and I wanted no secrets, pornhub was a topic of discussion between the two of us and he gave his consent for me to follow through with my efforts. I have caught him with over 50+ women on snapchat, cashapp receipts for videos and intimate pictures, a hotel reservation receipt, a plenty of fish dating profile, even just a few years back he was actively hiding applications thinking he was smart about it. Just recently as of a few days ago a woman reached out to me asking about our "status" I said 'well we've been married since 2019, what has he told you?' She stated and I have the text proving it that he lied and said we are separated getting a divorce. That was the first I was hearing about it. The stress has caught up to me, and made me sick, I know people will think about things one way and they make think about things in the other way. Perhaps we were not meant to be and that's fine. I just wish I would've known earlier. There were times I had tried to leave but he actively blocked doors with his body or sat in my path telling me to give him a chance. My forgiveness has run thin, I told him straight out from the get go if something was going on to please tell me because I have a right to know.....I am sorry to come at you guys like this it's just with it being so close to his coming home date I dont know if I can stomach it anymore, I want out, I want freedom but I dont know where to wholeheartedly go, do, or start, i've been reaching out to support groups in an effort to "build a village" so to speak so I can give my family a safer environment...